真のミュジカ

2012-02-05T21:32:00.000-08:00

Chingay, possibly the best event to kick start the month.

After days and days of hardwork and training, we finally ended this wonderful event together as Tenko.

Much credits must be given to Ohata and Fujitani san, whom choreographed the dance.

The chance of getting to hold the "chouchin"「提灯」and dance is just fun.

But way too tiring to last a 6 rounds of dance.

To be honest, I'm quite surprised I survived 3 days of hardcore chouchin dance!

Nevertheless, otsukaresama minna san!

The party, right after the last show on Saturday.

Was, insanely crazy.

All the free flow of alcohol, just make things go nuts.

Tan san, whom was a former People Association first man, brought us...

One badass sake and vodka.

Apart from that, all the beer and another sake before already made me high.

But well, who cares, 1h to my birthday. Just drink it up.

And so, I drank too much that night.

Gotten crazy with another sensei by the name kakuta.

Funny guy, we both are high like bird.

Best part is, we became friends after the whole party.

Poor man, no money call taxi... So we sat by the road waiting for 1 to appear.

Spoke to him in Japanese. And I didn't knew I can. LOL

Oh well, after that I left first and went home wash my red hair.

Made some new friends. Like Mika, Kakuta... some other JAS taiko player...

Ah.. Chingay, so fun.

But time is getting closer to both Ohata and Fujitani's departure.

Must finish their gift on time!

Ganbatte!

2012-01-19T23:36:00.000-08:00

Finally fully recovered. Just in time for CNY.

Just when I thought all's going well... mind ef...

Why you send me a mail?

Why now??? D:

Well, not enlisting.. but more of, hey you are some enhanced batch!

To me, die, go away, I don't want...

But then, I cannot say no... got to suck it up and live with it.

Sigh, people tell me, I will chiong the mountain, rush down the mountain, do any/everything under the sun and then fly to the moon.

wth, seriously...

my future.. seems tough, very tough.

For now, enjoy all the time i left being student.

Meanwhile, looking at life, finding a reason for my doings.

Till today, I still dont get why you still are so good term with one of the reason we broke up.

Not gonna care what you say, but, im just sad over it.

2012-01-08T09:21:00.000-08:00

Well then... after some 5 months.

I'm back to monkhood, square 1.

Whatever that happened was truly devastating to both of us.

I didn't want to come to this conclusion as well.

But seeing how things flow... I thought, letting go will be better.

The future holds so much mysteries.

Yet, some are already foreseen and pretty much anticipated.

You may say you are fine with it.

But deep down, I know you ain't.

I feared of the aftermath, till now, I'm still fearing.

Seeing how you throw yourself into sadness is just, making me take a step back.

I know, I hurt you hard.

And that it takes time to heal, or maybe won't heal.

But now, it's just too immature to me in every angle of your thoughts.

Not to critisize you, but to let you know, life is long.

We don't stop here.

If we do, what about those old people?

Living till 80+ 90, and then giving up hopes when they are 17.

Don't you think that 60-70 years you are going to spend next wasted?

Think about it.

I don't want to hurt you deeper.

I'm doing fine, feeling down a little at times.

Just hoping that you get up soon and walk again.

Take some time off, pull yourself together and try to accept again.

You can say whatever I told you is a lie.

But back then when I wrote/say it, it was from the bottom of my heart.

It's just how you perceive it... Really.

I was always true.

Now that I feel like a jerk with you writing that manner.

2012-01-08T09:07:00.000-08:00

And so... HIBIKI II was over.

The whole process felt so long, but now.. everything just went past like a flash.

This time round, we played it big.

A bigger scale concert with the best of we can present

I still can remember the nights i stayed up working on the brochure, exporting it and send it to sensei in the middle of the night.

The long hour training every time at Hibikiya, almost reaching home 11 plus per training.

The programme booklet, done while people was training hard.

I sat in the pantry alone rushing this informative art work for people.

Not just me, everybody worked hard.

So many nights of phone dialing and discussion.

All for a single moment together.

This is Taiko. A real one.

Not just a group of individuals who knows how to play, but a group of individuals who love to play and show.

First time receiving flowers on stage.

Felt shy... but yeah, who cares, given my character...

My first miyake bachi, another reason to work hard!

Even after the show, some lady came to me, and thank me for giving her some awesome showmanship.

She totally felt my passion and enjoyed all the pieces I done.

Whoever you are, thanks. Those are kind words that push me to the next level :)

This whole period of time were quite a struggle.

New items here and there... And many last minute decisions...

But of all these can't compare with the fact that people are leaving soon.

I can't help. But to feel sad. Really really sad.

Next round is Chingay. must have fun together!

Nevertheless, an awesome breakthrough for Hibikiya!

2011-12-21T09:13:00.000-08:00

It just occurs to me every time...

Whenever we are working out or training taiko...

I'm always worried for you, worry that the "what if" possibilities happening.

possibilities such as a relapse, chest pain whatever you name it that can put you in danger.

I'm always high on alert, making sure you are fine.

Times like today, when I asked you question, you just turned your head away and walked out of the room.

I know you wanna practice with the rest, but know your limit.

It is obvious that you ain't in condition to move more when your chest started to hurt, and curling up in a corner.

You should have at least let me know you are in pain.

& not silently walk off...

What if anything happens to you? I won't know baby, I really won't.

I'm glad, nothing happen to you.

Else, how am I gonna answer to your parents, my parents, and most of all, myself?

So please, take care of yourself ya?

Don't let this worrying feeling of mine remain that strong...

I'm sorry, if sometimes I had over reacted...

Nevertheless, I love you baby :)

2011-11-20T09:59:00.000-08:00

for so many years, i have been using the word "hectic" to describe my life

till now, it remain unchanged.

to you, i feel apologetic.

a girl whose boyfriend is so busy and couldn't spend much time with her is just sad.

I'm really sorry my dear.

every year's the same to me, especially year end.

I really hope this wave will go off soon as well.

I really wanna cherish all my time with you.

imagine a period where my time is 48h instead of 24h

won't that be wonderful?

I rather work 2x harder, than to lose 2x time with you.

time to reflect.

2011-11-17T10:30:00.000-08:00

I really, love this smile once. <3

gahh, im now sitting down on the chair.

sipping on some vitagen while putting a full stop on my essay.

yes, im done. not confident of it...

but oh well, let lecturer decide my fate bah

lately, me n dear undergo some serious experience together.

everything happen so sudden.

one morning we can be happily laughing together, then suddenly at night we get into a tiff.

just a couple of days ago, I ignore her for a day...

saw a very big problem in our relationship, and thought it will be good to solve it immediately.

but my approach was insane, too much for her to bear it.

I really cannot imagine not talking to her for the next 4 days.

Probably by then she will need a psychiatrist to cure her depression.

but yeah, sorry for ignoring you that day.

however we got a good outcome.

i really learnt something new about you. im glad.

then the day after, our first argument.

details, i wont go through...

but it is about trust.

no matter what, health always comes first before you can do anything else.

if you are sick, rest.

don't suddenly let me find out you ain't resting but somewhere else.

but I'm happy that your fever subsided at night.

else AFA will be no go for u :(

then today, was chatting happily.

wasn't sure why my mood just changed in an instant.

it's really bad to chat and do a last minute work at the same time.

you feel stress typing your work while you got to manage some attention on someone else.

im not pointing at my dear, but to everyone and anyone.

just now in our convo...

I was telling you...

to me, you are part of my life already.

we started this journey together on the 7th Aug together.

since then, i held you hand tightly and swore to protect you

every now and then you will flash in my mind, my dreams

every time when im with you, it just felt so lovely and warm

till now, im still feeling the same thing as i did when we were together the first day.

yes... you said we'd been through an earthquake together before.

now is the tremors.

but after the tremors will be stable ground again.

there is bound to be another wave of earthquake.

just that we won't know when.

don't feel insecure, this is a test.

a test for us to undergo.

the fruit of this test, a stronger bond we could have ever imagine.

im sorry again for tonight.

I just couldn't understand your stubbornness of this issue.

probably im a guy of opportunity, i grab chances hard. very hard.

And when these opportunity is something I can share.

I wish to share with you.

Cause you are my lovely darlung.

suddenly, i see that I typed a lot.

alright, getting late. sleep.

Bonds stronger than superglue on gundam.

2011-11-11T05:12:00.000-08:00

Our 12 deals,

~~hug you~~
~~kiss you~~
~~piggy back you~~
~~make u laugh~~
~~thank my sis~~
~~take back my word abt myself~~
~~meet your folks~~
~~rilakuma curry with lots of love~~
something real epic by you
a new wood kun
~~sing you a song~~
remember that you love me so long you live [how to strike this off?]

I remember it all back to back, without cheating :)

updated 18/11/11

updated 25/12/11

2011-11-11T04:55:00.000-08:00

happy birthday hui jing!

today is 11/11/11! I remember your birthday! :D

Have a blast girl! heh :D

Your lies, i seen it right through

Polyclinic stops operation by 5. I called you at 5 plus, u were still there

when you texted me u were home, big lie. i was at ur block all along.

Life sucks. At 11.11am, i forgot to make a wish. Wasted.

The next one at 11.11pm, isn't the real deal. Cause it is 2311h to be exact.

Oh well, today just went off like that.

Nobody can repay me the moment missed today, not till another century later at 2111.

When I might already die before reaching then.

Sad wasn't it?

2011-11-10T04:06:00.000-08:00

Don't get me wrong, im not angry.

im just... waiting for something to happen

something only you can do.

im waiting with a positive mind.

side notes, im not meeting you in the morning tomorrow

2011-11-09T09:22:00.000-08:00

I wonder why...

I have started worrying things that I dont usually.

This has no longer got to deal with gundam or taiko..

Its just... Us.

I have started to took notice of something myself...

Im starting to lose topics in my mind.

Dont know is it due to overworking of my mind...

Or... I used it too much to have a flow in our relationship.

Sometimes... This crappy topicless feeling is seasonal.

Sometimes... It just come by force.

I dont wanna a day i have to do sign language to communicate.

It just feel so hopeless.

Many times, its just what you wrote made me reflect a lot.

So many worries. No answers. It just drive me crazy...

Well... Guess something needa be done.

Im just gonna try the other way.

Nevertheless, i will always love you.

2011-11-02T04:26:00.000-07:00

guess i will blog a bit before I get started with the final phrase of my gundam corework...

After 2 months of intensive research, planning and implementation...

My gundam competition entry is finally coming to an end.

Probably the best I ever done so far...

These 2 months had been hectic.

Everyday works around the same way; wake up, brush up, eat breakfast, then gundam all the way.

Except for occasional outings with my dearest Ker Xin and training at hibikiya.

Gundam isn't just about personal skills and artistic views.

It also includes the support from people all around the maker.

People like friends, families and of course, her.

Though dear's support ain't physical, having her around calms me down.

With a clear mind, I could press on harder and more intensive.

You played an important role in keeping my state of mind relax.

Which is pretty important, so I won't lose sense of direction in what I'm doing.

Thanks, really. :)

Having to read your blog lately, I guess I better write these chunk of stuff down here.

You know me, memory space hasn't been efficient lately with so many things going on.

It boils down to me why I had chosen you in the very end.

Like you said, why not other girls?

Back then, I was very happy to find out someone like you existed.

A girl who plays taiko, knows gundam and many random stuff that I like.

It's like, my dream partner.

Prolly all the relationship I had before didn't turn out well cause of the common interest we didn't have.

Thus, since then I believe it is quite important to have someone to share this interest together.

Don't you also think we are tied by affinity?

Like, one day I met you in the music room.

You found me annoying.

A few months later, I met you at Ngee Ann City.

A few days later, we chatted.

And slowly, things turned out like this, we are together :)

I like you not cause of your stupidity, or rather slight immaturity.

It's your considerate heart, your smile and your cuteness that warms my lonesome heart.

Love them all, including your flaws which I'm waiting for it to turn for a better side. :\

Express yourself more la! xD

We should do more verbal communication. Seriously.

It's just how I felt about having to do everything online.

You saw those older post, how much I dislike online communication.

Skype is good, I see you and hear you.

MSN and facebook... not my choice at all.

Oh well...

For now, I don't want to rely on you.

While I'm still capable, I want you to rely on me whenever you need me.

I'm a lonewolf before meeting you. I'm strong independently.

Till the day my mind goes bonkers, that's when I need help.

If I go about relying someone else too much, I will be weakened.

So yeah, if still don't know what this means, we can talk it out.

I have typed whatever is on my mind. Nothing left out.

Alright, back to work. :)

You trust me, so do I.

夢

2011-10-24T08:49:00.000-07:00

At this period of time...

Is usually what we call the MAD RUSH TO THE FINISH LINE.

Well, pray hard for me. Cause, I freaking left 8 DAYS.

PAINTING IS LIKE HELL NOW!

SEE THE NUMBER OF PARTS, I WENT OHYAYTIMETOPARTY ._ .

& these are not the only paint used... still got more under table -_ -||

Special preview to stalkers! :D

But seriously, seeing this photo...

I feel that I'm one step closer to my dream I set back then when I first started...

I guess I haven't told anyone about this...

Prolly a vague one to dear over the phone just now...

When I first started Gunpla back in 2006(?) [shit, forget]

I was rather an ambitious brat.

Thinking of coming out with my own version of gundam like the pro.

But yeah, no one can do that well in the start.

Unless, he or she is a born genius...

I also wanted to go Hong Kong and compete before I reach 20.

Whether I win in the international level, it doesn't matter that much.

At least, I stood at the international stage.

Now, seeing Hannya.

I felt that I'm one step closer to my dream.

Sickos still exist, so now is a matter of which sick guy make it into the top.

I hope this time...

Will be me.

Dreams, I'd been always searching for you.

But just that, this isn't that practical to life.

A hobby is forever a hobby.

May become career one day, but depends on how you expand it.

So people reading this post now.

What is your dream?

Don't have one?

Do soul searching! :D

Or think back in time when you were much younger!

DREAM ARH! HAHA!

Sorry neh, my schedule of life is always so pack...

You won't be alone, I love you :)

ok, sleep.

2011-10-11T10:21:00.001-07:00

the sense of helplessness, been hitting on me lately.

the promise of being there for you all the time, seems like too hard to fulfill at times like this.

I can't do anything to make things better.

Well, it may seem like I'm blaming myself too much...

But yeah, it's how i perceive things now.

Upon receiving your text, I read through it word by word.

Slowly absorbing what you are expressing.

And to know that I haven't been thinking much in your shoes.

And to figure that, I'm totally helpless in this situation.

Sometimes, it could just be you...

like what I told you on bus back that about expressing oneself.

Or could just be me being insensitive to matters.

Nevertheless, I'm sorry.

And when you said you need some time to cool down a moment ago...

Nostalgic feelings came fluttering back into me.

Just like my past relationship, how things start to get worsen from there.

And how things ended from that point onwards.

Didn't want all this nonsense to happen on me once more.

I wanted you alongside with me despite all odds.

Not just a happy 3 month couple and the game ends.

But luckily, we weren't on that line of thought.

Not like, we need time to cool down for both of us.

Nothing is wrong.

It's just a nostalgic feeling that I got back then.

No hidden meanings too, ya?

I'm just a very fortunate guy.

With such a cute girlfriend, just that I was hoping for more understanding of her now.

A great life.

Nothing else I could ask for expect money.

And yes, money is root to all evil.

I figure that, my life is too overpriced.

With the things I'm involving myself in and all.

Thinking of earning big bucks will be plain stupid.

Working your ass off and end up being stressful.

By the time the money arrives, I would have missed my youth.

By then, regret is the only thing that will describe my life.

So for now, I have no money and yet I need money.

How contradicting.

It's just making no sense at all.

Ahh yes... gonna wait till tomorrow to meet girlfriend.

Hoping for the best when I meet her.

Cause, I'm loving her no matter what odds I'm facing.

It's the real deal.

If ya reading this now, I'm praying for you.

Sincerely, with my heart.

2011-10-05T09:00:00.000-07:00

come thinking of it, that unforeseen time feels kind of scary to me now.

2011-09-21T06:47:00.000-07:00

或許是我自己的好勝又創意的腦，造成了我現在的覺悟。

以為自己的概念做得毫無瑕疵。

但是昨天才領悟到了一點。。。

般喏做出來於妖有很大的相識。

對於每一個人都不是很受歡迎。

尤其是擁有宗教信仰的人，比如說。。。我的師傅。

對他來說，般喏這隻妖的概念是充滿了魔的主意。

和他個人對神的信念有很大的衝突。

跟我談話時有些保留。

這時我開始有點擔心其他人是否也會有所看法。。。

。＿。

剛才，我在網絡上看見了很多天才的作品。

使得我目不轉睛，贊贊絕口。

雖然我被師傅的看法影響了不少。

但是，看了看這些天才的作品。。。

我想起了剛出道的我。

很有夢想的做法。

這一次般喏就是我得到夢想的第一道門。

突然，身體就殘生了默种毅力。

一道很強烈的烈火。

衝阿！

2011-09-19T07:42:00.000-07:00

11 + 30 + 3. I only left 44 days.

panic much?

plus seeing tenko oct schedule... die, it's worst than I imagined.

freaking pray i no need do that stupid eye test again, cause i kind of screw it up last week.

tomorrow's going hospital again. needa wake up early again. ._ .

Suddenly thought of a friend in office,

A: how are you today?

B: good.

A: it seemed happening...

B: ya.

... no other message...

-conversation died-

somehow, i do get these stuffs these days... ._ . really, have no idea what to speak next.

gonna spend some effort waiting then.

sometimes, i can't help but to feel jealous of friends around you.

we may be so close, yet it's more open with them.

2011-08-23T10:11:00.000-07:00

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2011-08-23T10:01:00.001-07:00

& here I'm blogging...

it had been a crazy week... whoo...

natsu matsuri... all the training before it...

body's just worn out.

And yet, all of these are just a new start for me...

Finally got one of my wish to come true.

After a year of acknowledgement and hard work...

My effort paid off, Im now proud to announce, I'm from Tenko :D

Insane training schedule ahead.

Looks like I got to decline all the Friday training since I'm down with Gundam.

whoo~

Guessed tonight I would be able to sleep normally...

Ran with dear today, opened my air sacs to breath properly again.

Kind of worried as I see her grasping for air.. but got to be calm.

Else if I panicked, she's dead meat D':

Alright, probably going back to my editing suite now.

Left 7 songs including the 2 damn extra encore which I don't know the name ._ .

Hope you continue to blog, since that is my little channel to what's going on with you

2011-08-18T07:48:00.000-07:00

Have been a happy guy lately...

wonder why... so many joyous events happening :)

Life wasn't so happy till now...

it was happy before, just that... it's even better now :)

2 more days to natsu.

Hell lot more of editing to be done.

Lesson learnt, don't be hero. Okay, not exactly a hero.

Sigh... so many things to be done this holiday.

Or is it I'm overseeing things...

Gundam, yes, it's been going on for years... A routine I say.

More designing work for Tenko... free labour. ._ .

Learn Jap... god damn it... how long have I not touched this.

Learn Shakuhachi, gonna run everyday for this...

Hope I will have some time for Pingu...

I can't be superman at home always.. Gahhhh...

Looking back 3 years ago when I picked DVFX as my first choice.

I got in, without knowing what's coming ahead.

I knew nothing about this whole media industry and thought it might be fun.

That time, I haven't really thought of what a future I may have.

But now, I guessed I did.

Being a aimless guy back then, makes me kind of regret not having to think of life at that point.

Or maybe it could be a good thing after all...

Like, I actually learnt a new skill that is cool and special.

But, the reality of that job is just... I cannot accept.

No need to rant about the whole detail.

Just knowing, I will lose a life that belong to me and others.

A life that could bring joy to so much more people.

Sometimes, I wonder if this thought is right....

Let's just hope for the best.

What ever I will decide later...

Complicated minds

was hoping you will take initiatives at times...

2011-08-10T08:58:00.000-07:00

Today... I saw some photo updates from my fellow lion dance mate...

Come thinking of it.. I haven't regretted leaving that troupe a few years back...

Say.. this is my fourth year?

Maybe 天助 was right. If back then how they nurture me had been better...

I would have stayed.

Or maybe some assed up fellow gone, which is impossible to start with.

4 years down the road, my wrist recovered...

Backbone gotten better...

started drumming again...

meeting new people, and my dearest pingu...

Though we all have a past before.

It can be good, bad, horrendous, vivid.

But nevertheless, we should move on as always.

To all that had a past trapped behind you.

My best advice, just forgot about it.

Forgetting is hard, yet.. the only solution.

Not that I already forgotten everything that happened in the past.

But I remember them, as an priceless experience to myself.

Let's just say, you couldn't forget every single details that happened in your life now.

But hey, you still got a long way to go.

Your life doesn't end here nor your memory stops here.

So, look ahead.

Whatever that's passed may be nasty, looking ahead now is what you need most.

Cherish "now", let go "then", anticipate "yet".

Every moment scribed deeply into my memory

you may be cold at times, but I will warm you up

2011-08-07T10:56:00.000-07:00

simple day... ended beautifully.

yep, she's mine now.

so ya fags get away from her >:D

federal warning... hohoho~ xD

though random... but given the scenery... it's the best time.

my prayers were heard; the rain stopped.

thanks.

so much thanks in everything that made today a happening day.

and thank you, my dear pingu for existing to make this day possible.

One of a kind, the Dogma and Sphish

2011-08-05T10:44:00.000-07:00

REAL FACT 1269:

as a matter of fact...

I prefer real voice to anything else.

online chat is so digital, so... virtual...

it's like, i really cannot feel anyone's presence at all...

to me... presence is more than anything else.

though i know i can conceal mine or maybe, don't even have it...

sometimes, I just wished we were all in the olden days... using letters.

every letter contains emotion so deeply written onto the paper.

so deep that the other party could feel it...

these days... pfft. =3=

life. so screwed.

1 more night, 1 more day n night! :D

heh, sugar coated dream :D

2011-08-03T07:10:00.001-07:00

body's all well... as for now...

got to reboost body immune n prepare for natsu matsuri.

1h no break in between ain't a joke after all...

just a few days more to end of internship!

as well as that certain day to come~!

wonder how it will turn out...

時々に、俺だちのチャットに君が最初に初めて希望するんだ...

2011-07-30T09:56:00.000-07:00

Being in this band so long...

Shit like this happen... So...

how?

1 week left :)

2011-07-28T12:06:00.000-07:00

I spend the long night, researching on asthma.

To be well prepared for any shit that comes.

For her only. :)

2011-07-28T09:10:00.000-07:00

Verdict: I'm sick.

Alright, caught up with fever once more.

Been falling sick more often this year...

Got to improve my immune system somehow D:

New record of fever... 39.5 Degree... previously was like 39.2 last year.

missed 2 days of night chats with her... darn... D:

but i guess she needed rest too... seeing how she was huffing and puffing for air yesterday...

you got me worried too girl!

if you are praying for my recovery now, I will do likewise for your relapse not knocking on your door so soon... :)

i'm glad meeting you, always...

2011-07-26T09:53:00.000-07:00

Dear you,

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GJlCrsLdMGI (but im not playing this for you awww xD)

awesome night together :)

the sweat and energy used...

-felt cool at that certain moment, thanks random biker!-

Every moment unforgettable...

2011-07-25T23:34:00.001-07:00

looking at this weather at newton...

im suppose to meet her later...

hope the sky help me a little... D:

sitting in office still thinking of you...

そいつが馬鹿だ

2011-07-25T18:36:00.000-07:00

昔々有る所に．．．

それは、それは、馬鹿な女が生まれました．．．

同時に．．．此の男も生まれました．．．

男は太鼓人ですから、毎日一つで練習して．．．

ゆくりゆくり、此の男は寂しいに変わる．．．

ある日．．．男のは女を見た。

彼は、男の学校の翼太鼓も参加する。

あの女な顔は可愛い、優しいな心が有る．．．

ところで、太鼓が大好きなんだ。

あの女が好きなんだ．．．

でも、今その男は仕事が有りました。

白状の時間は全然だめだよ。

同時に、その馬鹿な女の心はちょっと不安げ。

ダカラ、今二人は恋人が変わらない．．．

併し乍ら、２週後で．．．その西海岸のデートは．．．

此の男と女に白状をするだ。

今、男は本当に楽しみにで．．．

新しいのストリがスタト。

2011-07-24T10:37:00.000-07:00

this is selfish, but, I want to be the last one to leave in your daily chat

2011-07-24T09:54:00.001-07:00

by the time my self-conscious realise what's going on, i'm already in love with you.

2011-07-23T09:02:00.000-07:00

time, can you move a bit faster?

2011-07-21T15:03:00.000-07:00

for once... going to NP's training seemed so hard...

my eyes... can't stay away from her.

however being one of the leaders, I cannot do so...

got to be fair to everyone. urgh. it's like a torture.

i guess this is what people call... "公私分明” separate private affairs from work

if only time pass faster! then i no need to be in this state D:

prolly posted a wrong status yesterday ._ .

got dumbfounded by that single question...

but then, I hope she see through that message...

"tenko-to-be"...

Should have made myself clear, but no... can't say it out D:

damn!

guess will be back blogging... to keep track of my life once more :D

glad that i'm still chatting with her till late night. like a blessing!

__(.^ . )___ | |

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idk why.. but saying you are cute makes me shy ._ .

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"I will cherish you like no other, for that you are my only idiosyncratic one"

2011-07-19T03:51:00.000-07:00

Wonder how long have i not blogged... Quite long ne...

Life is hectic as usual. So fast paced and so much to do...

Iits like exhausting sometimes. Lol wad eng is this... Oh well

taiko is normal as usual. Just that im getting more chances these days...

More recognition is what i need now. And yeah shall achieve that.

The dream of going kodo is not over yet.

Even master bernard ask me go. Lol

but then.. It is 20k usd. Fml. How to save up that much. Lol

ii need sponsorship. Hahahaha

looks like since my last post. I kind of find whatever i posted before was nonsense.

Couodnt even see her how to grow feelings? Hahaha

guess that torch died out some time ago. ._ .

Best part is i dont even have time to learn jap to communicate.

So yeah... Next life le ba. Hahahalol

though life was hectic... Amazing events sill happened...

Meeting new people and situations...

Particulary about this one girl.

Amazed me with passion similar of mine. Just that im insane to begin with.

Started to talk to her and all everynight...

As a matter of fact... Its been long since i had any online chat for hours

really glad to have such sessions again. Make me feel human.

Despite trolling so much.. Its kind of amazing she will read n response.

Hahahabbqlol

it feels good in a way. :)

Or i could say. That small flame sparked. N growing steadily every now n then.

Sadly... Im at my peak of internship.

Everything starts to flood in... Work pile up like mt everest.

if only im a free man... I could have done somethig now.

N i wanna be fair to all... i want to do it properly...

But never mind. I will wait for 3 weeks later. When i can proclaim free man.

That beach outing. ;)

Just pray for a sunny day~ k shut up. Lol

now on bus... Long journey home...

Today i just any other fk up standby day. _ .

Hahaha. Period

2011-02-10T09:06:00.000-08:00

it's been a while since i last posted anything.

Really, I have no motivation to do so, even though there is so much I wanna spam.

So now, I felt like reviewing on my current life once again.

On a page where few or none will see.

Things have been picking up smoothly for me in my exterior taiko life.

Meeting the nice group of people, despite all that nonsensical miscommunication.

I tried to push myself a step closer to my dream, a step closer to who I wish to be.

I'm glad, really very glad that I did the right stuff.

But then, it doesn't work out in my school side.

People not as enthusiastic as I vision them to be.

I felt that I'm greedy in a sense I want everybody to be as good as me.

To stand in front of all and being respected.

Somehow... I don't get that coming.

I do ask myself why ain't this good stuff happening....

"__blank__" was what I deduced.

I got no answer, no clue, nothing at all.

Oh well... at this point of time, thinking so much about it just make me feel sad.

Hence, I'd decided to let go of my goal in this group.

Never thought of regretting, it's just plain stress for me at this time.

I think, i'm still immature in this line. I still got more to learn ._ .

Nevertheless, those negative thoughts did not stop me from getting to my dream.

I felt even stronger when I decided onto what I should do.

I looked back into the past.

Seeing the troupe I entered.

A place where I don't feel any existence.

Nobody to talk to, people looking down on me.

Now I stand in a field where I'm proud of. The feeling stronger than anything else.

I know this time, my effort is right. :)

Period.

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I started watching this show called "Rookies" by TBS Japan (2008)

For once, I felt human.

I can't believe I teared at some scenes.

Thinking about those scenes in the story, it brings me to what I want.

The whole story is actually talking about achieving your dream.

I lacked so much in this field.

Ever since school started as a secondary school teenager.

I forgot I do have a dream. Living my days off not thinking about it.

I can't believe how much time I wasted not getting a dream and achieving it.

Grieving now won't change anything, thus to salvage myself.

I got hold of a dream and intended to fulfill it.

We all live once, play it hard, the way you want.

Not regretting at the end of the day that you didn't accomplish anything.

Yeah, period.

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Recently, I started thinking why am I so inhumane these days.

Not caring of how people feel, how they think and stuff.

I just do what I think is right and inevitably hurting them all.

Was I born like that?

Probably no, but it's just that I'm honest to myself.

I wanted to express what I felt best for others.

Some idiots, okay no exception for you, I just face palm you.

But again, it hurts people who doesn't wanna be hurt.

What actually happened to me?

Too stress?

No love?

Or what?

No i'm not stress, I think i'm lacking of love ever since my last.

(heart turns cold ne, no more warmth! hahahaha)

Or rather, companionship.

Seeing back into the stuffs I do outside of school.

It's like I'm a lone wolf.

Like gundam, yes I got a master giving me advice.

But ultimately, I sits in front of my desk and finish up my art work alone.

Not so much for the Exterior Taiko side, but for in school's taiko...

The difference in level brought me to a lonely stage pushing everybody.

Yea, people tried to help out, I appreciated it.

But it's just that... The time we wasted really drove me into the wrong direction.

Wanting everything to speed up and hardly some could catch up.

In project work, I personally thinks that I'm thinking more out of the box.

People are just following instructions like a dog not having a view of their own.

And that, no understanding is form in them.

I don't know, but this is how I felt. ._ .

All in all, to be who I'm now, sucks.

Only when I get outdoors, holding 2 wooden sticks. I'm truly enjoying myself.

Period.

2010-11-23T10:01:00.000-08:00

１１日あとJLPTテストをしています。

今は、練習ちょっと良いじゃない。

毎日、僕は勉強しませんから、時々怖いね。

もう、学校のポロジェトーはしません．．．

本当に煩悶ですね。

でも、今は頑張るつもります！

早く寝て，明日は学校で勉強しています！

2010-11-15T08:09:00.000-08:00

it's been a while since the last update.

the sudden outburst of workload is driving me tired and crazy.

ok la, gundam isn't so much of madness for me since i have to go through this insane process every year. moreover this year is WORLD CUP!

Luckily got 10 days EXTENSION! Or else I couldn't imagine how badly I would have done.

I really appreciate the 10 day grace. Making use of it. By the end of it... I'll be of another level.

Somehow... I failed to keep my words last time, say wad holiday built portfolio. End up nothing done. Till I get notice that portfolio must be done by Dec. STRESS. REALLY REALLY STRESS.

Must do work 3x the speed, thinking time must be super fast to solve problems. Otherwise I wont make it to the company I wanted to go for internship.

IBP wise, shan't comment so much. No intention of doing it as well.

Wonder why we need IS. More work pile up and it is hard to handle so many thing one go. Guess the rest of this semester will be hell for me?

But me is glad to have met nice people for my project works. hope this is the chance i had this time round to help me excel. :) thanks girls!

last friday lost my freaking HDD. Panic the whole weekend, couldn't sleep well. The fear of losing ALL your work is explainable. Really have little courage to rebuilt the whole portfolio again. It is just hours and hours of effort spend to do those work. Then suddenly it's all gone, taken by others. Ripping all my blood and effort. It's just fked up.

For once, I hoped for miracle. And today, the sky answered my request. Early morning 6.45am, i set off to school. The sky was beautiful, like a daybreak bell shattering all the nightmare i had the night before.

7.30am I reached school. Lab's lock. Ok never mind, i went to Makan place to wait.

...

7.55am, I went back lab. Lights was on. I rushed in... switching on all the lights in the lab...

& I slowly approached the station I worked on last friday.

For once... I felt happiness that is unexplainable. Seeing that familiar leather case, Red metallic body, my HDD. All my work, left intact. Nobody touched, still in one piece.

yeah, that explains it why I can sleep well tonight, apart from the pain i get from Taiko just now.

Speaking of which, guess it's kind of hard to get praises from sensei. I could understand that she needs time for other members as well. But sometimes... I feel like it is hard to earn what I want. Every week... I go back to the class with more power, more spirit, more skill. But still... I don't get the comments i need.

OR IS THIS SOME SORT OF TEST I'M BEING PUT THROUGH?

Something like self-actualization. Stuffs that she don't speak of, I have to find out myself?

Damn this is just plain confusing. Guess I need to do self reflection after every session.

SO BE IT. From now on, I'm gonna get the answers myself. I will prove that I'll be her most honorable and proudest student.

BRING IT ON!

2010-10-10T09:57:00.000-07:00

hmm...

from now, i declare, i will stop eating sweet stuff so as not to hinder my breathing.

yeah, this will be a reminder to myself :)

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a few more days to go before submission of TMC comp.

gonna work hard tomorrow on colour editing.

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felt PROUD of myself.

now I truly understand the meaning of never give up.

23 attempts on casting a clear part, 20 fails! 2 60% passes, 1 SUCCEEDED. (omglol)

tons of plastic wasted, fingers all scaled. but... it's worth it :)

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that's it. red head isn't my cup of tea anymore. sadly...

totally lost momentum for this.

2010-10-02T09:00:00.001-07:00

losing hope, getting all stressed up during our weekly training at the very comfortable room, Stanza.

yes, people are turning up for training.

but just how many are truly serious? how many just come for coming to have fun?

i agree that having Fun is essential in a training, however not till the extent of joking around.

when i looked at my men, yea, i'm glad they come for training.

somehow this year round there are too much circumstances.

too much for me to hold on tightly to the initial goal i planned for this troupe.

I wonder if any of you is reading this.

I just feel disappointed at times seeing how stuff progresses.

stuff which i wanted to see, volunteerism, leadership, team spirit just isn't there yet.

yes, we did went through a period of time doing nothing.

probably that's the big loop hole in this journey

even so, we should embrace ourselves and be stronger right?

till now, i really see nothing.

I thought i was blind, im not.

sigh.

or maybe... i should just lower down standard.

let nature takes it's course.

time wasted... let it waste some more

till... a miracle happen

2010-08-26T08:46:00.001-07:00

friggin dulan with a bitch now

2010-08-23T10:22:00.000-07:00

Woah.. one year past so soon...

The same date last year, I'm sleeping in Boss Tower in Thailand now.

Probably thinking of the event that took place the night before.

Haha, yeah summer festival.

The one event that attracts thousands to gather and enjoy the festival.

This year swarming up to 7900 people to feel the heat.

This year round is special to me.

I got to be part of Tenko, not official though, playing drums and sending the power to the people.

Taiko is like one of my ambition now.

I guessed I'm really cut out to be a drummer! :D

Thanks Namiko Sensei for the opportunity!

Really appreciated it!

Sooner or later I will officially join this amazing family. I swear.

For now, Gundam heat is on again.

People are starting their engines in stealth mode.

Then what am I doing? LOL

2 months left, I only snap fit my GN-X.

Shizz... it's gonna be tough this time round.

Mid year standard is astonishing!

But with supports form friends and family, I will excel :)

Thanks guys!

2010-08-10T09:52:00.000-07:00

Yep, time to run my engine! :D

This year's entry: GN-XII Babylon

2010-08-07T12:52:00.000-07:00

Oh yeah, Holiday is here (not)

Days of nightmare working in DVFX lab is like over. (yeah right, lies)

Well... it is actually kind of like a good news to me when i can still work on that project.

Re-rendering and hoping to achieve optimum result is what i want.

Seriously, this is the last chance. If we lose this chance, the project's is really a total failure.

Went out to buddhism service today.

For the first time, i've decided to believe in something.

Of all reasons, why buddhism?

Nice question, I don't really know the answer.

But. No harm trying ya?

I just felt that i need to find back my true self. Back to who I was from the beginning.

After entering poly, my life became hectic and tones of things happen.

From assignments, to CCAs and to friends.

I seemed to be failing in everything.

I felt that my focus is just all over the place.

My character, shooting everybody head on without mercy.

My skills, placing me somewhere away from the crowd?

Oh well... time to find back my origin.

Life will be better by then i suppose...

And yeah, there is a reason for everything.

Shit does happens all the time. You won't know when will be the next moment you are fucked.

2010-07-25T09:17:00.001-07:00

Haha, this blog is so dead. Don't even know if anybody drop by...

Oh well, never mind.

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My plans of having a day off is busted. Gonna try hard the week after.

Mini tests are coming and i haven't start revision. Great.

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Screw this man, I think I'm quite a disappointment.

Client trust me to do what they wants, but all I did was questions all over.

Maybe I'm lacking of confidence in my own work.

Or I'm just following orders without my own artistic views.

Maybe I should reflect on these things before I go to the next stage.

"Realization is the key to stop wasting yours and other's time."

"When you start a work, do it till the end. Don't stop halfway cause you find it unappealing or too tough for you. You won't advance cause of that."

2010-07-20T08:57:00.001-07:00

fuck la, being who I am makes me damn miserable now

2010-07-20T08:20:00.000-07:00

I think no matter what I say now won't redeem myself. Block me if you want.

I know myself, I really didn't meant for this to happen. Till then, bye.

The world for me now is really fked up.

I'm making more enemies than friends every time.

Misunderstanding really is a killer.

Maybe I should go for a long vacation by myself.

Do some soul searching somewhere before coming back.

2010-07-11T09:58:00.001-07:00

yeah, later is the beginning of the final project...

this time, i shall make myself a speed modelling demon (Y)

texturing wise... errhem... :(

looking forward to a new morning later...

紅 :)

will the clash of standards affect everybody?

i hope not...

2010-07-08T06:35:00.000-07:00

It's been a while since i last posted something...

Life have been busy and lots of work to be done.

Everday seems similar; going home around 10pm...

Just pull through this month and I will be free again. :)

Final project, 3 modules in 1.

Is it good or bad? I wonder...

Working with the same team again +1.

Somehow... I feel many obstacles in the way...

Sigh...

Once again, I need a job. Badly...

I need to increase more numbers in my bank...

Life just sucks when you have no cash to spend for yourself.

Worst part is you have to be dependent on someone for your own stuff.

It just sucks.

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I feel worried these few days.

Past memories kind of teaches me a lesson.

"Eating and Shitting at the same place" is just no good.

Well... I just don't know...

But your red hair is just beautiful. D:

FML.

2010-06-21T08:17:00.000-07:00

Woah... Awesome training in Tenko today.

So good that i need to crawl back into my room.

Had a nice dinner with god ma, talking over the table about human relationships...

While talking, i see myself as a passerby; seeing everything, knowing it, but doing nothing about it.

Probably is because of the aftermath of the previous trip that changes everything.

Hmm... being a bystander... is it really good? Or it is bad? hmm...

2010-06-10T09:53:00.000-07:00

Yeah, finally the final rounds of judging had begun.

I'm not yearning for any prize this time round...

The entries are really power, all well modelled and presented.

Ah, since Mid year is over now...

Must begin thinking of how to go about doing BAKUC.

For now... time to relax a bit and do some CG :)

Of course, the above picture is 99.99% not the actual stuff.

Just twisted the colours around to come out with a preview of what I'm painting now.

Maybe, CG is more interesting than what we think.

The power of colour unison is truly magnificent.

You will never know, when you might come out with the most awesome combination!

2010-06-05T09:36:00.000-07:00

Damn it man, my life have been fucking me up lately.

People who don't understand the need of upgrading really pisses me off.

How satisfied will you feel when you are strumming a 3/4 dead guitar?

How happy will you feel when you are using a camera that starts to flicker and still using an old technology?

Yes, maybe these are just some additional stuff to life.

But to me, it's my road to professionalism.

A guitar needs to have a perfectly built electronics.

With a part having screw loose or what, the whole thing will be a FAILED subject.

Mine already have this problem of pickup dead, input jack loosening and tuner broker.

Moreover, it is some cheapo guitar i bought last time.

Now, it's time for me to move on, but i can't.

Everybody think it is a waste to get another one.

And they tell you "can use, can already"

FUCK OFF please, i would not upgrade something that has no use okay?

Yes i know im incapable of earning money now.

BUT WTF MAN, i'm still studying and how the hell i find those money for these things?

I SERIOUSLY THINK THAT, I CANNOT WASTE ANY MORE YOUTH

-lastly, those words a bitch said to me today, really piss me off.

2010-06-04T12:02:00.000-07:00

Nowadays, watching energetic taiko performance makes me happy.

I really want to play drums like them.

Everything seems so relaxed and fun.

Probably, this will be my goal.

Let's not waste youth any longer! :)

& i chosen to forgo

2010-05-23T23:38:00.000-07:00

Taiko - Japanese drumming
Traditional taiko playing is perhaps thousands of years old, contemporary taiko playing has built rapidly on that foundation
Taiko Drumming - tone generation
Essentially taiko is closer to drum kit drumming than the other forms of percussion that its 'world music' label may indicate. This is by virtue of the fact that the instruments are played almost exclusively with sticks (bachi), furthermore many of the sticking patterns and rudiments are common to the two. Generally one taiko drum is played by one person for a song. however It is becoming increasingly common to see 'kumi-daiko' which sets up several drums around a central playing position. This is similar to a drum kit's toms, although kumi-daiko are not normally ordered by descending tone. Style of drumming
To me (and this is purely my own opinion) the taiko style is best characterised by an approach and an attitude. This is comprised of highly stylised and disciplined elements, executed by one or more players with extreme accuracy and control. The emphasis is not on speed or chops but on making deliberate and definite patterns that either provide, support or weave through base rhythms. Because rhythmically each piece is comprised of several interlocking parts the drum melodies are complex and synergistic and the listener cannot help but be engaged. If there was one key requirement for taiko playing, focus would probably be there for me.
The drums The drums are by far the most recognisable element of any Taiko performance. Most people think of the giant O-daiko when they think of taiko drumming. O-daiko means literally 'big drum' and is a term given to any drum with a batter / playable head in excess of 3ft. I have seen pictures of these drums where a grown man is able to stand upright inside the shell. The shells are traditionally made by carving a huge trunk of Japanese Oak (zelkova) into one single barrel-shaped piece however contemporary woods include ash & American oak and it is common to see groups in the west playing taiko made out of winebarrels. Some manufacturers have started to manufacture drums out of synthetic materials. The heads on the drums are made out of rawhide, the O-daiko uses the full hide of a Holstein Bull for each head. The heads are stretched very very tightly over the drumand are tacked into position. A Taiko head can last years of beating before requiring replacement.There are many different types and sizes of taiko drums, however the 4 main variations are.
O-Daiko: as described above. Any large barrel shaped drum with a head size in excess of 3ft. carved from one solid piece of wood. The inside of the drum is shaped during the carving process with the purpose of cancelling out the overtones that come from such a large head under such great tension. An O-daiko may have 4-6 carrying handles, however I defy 4 people to lift one as they generally weigh about a half a ton (open to correction on that one)
Chu-Daiko: Medium sized drum. generally 24-28" or so tall with a 20-22" playing head, carved from one solid piece of wood. As with the O-Daiko, the interior of the drum is carved for acoustic improvement
Oki-Daiko: smaller lighter drum made from staves, head 14-16" height 18-20", usually carried and used for dancing Rope tuned .
Shime-daiko: the baby of the set and a beautiful drum. 10-12" playing area (14" head), about 10" deep. single piece construction, tuned with thick ropes (1cm approx.) and placed under immense tension to give the highest tone possible. It takes 2 men 20minutes to tune this drum using all their strength and several large pieces of wood for leverage. There is also a bolt-tuned version which takes much of the strain out of tuning, however the rope tuned drum looks much better and sits better aesthetically with the rest of the drums Playing positions There are a number of different playing approaches each of which gives a different sound and requires different posture and 'attitude' from the drummer. Some of the positions are common amongst drums. O-Daiko This drum is positioned with the lowest part of the playing surface at chest height and is struck with oak bachi (sticks) that are approx. 2" in diameter and 18" or so in length. The physical exertion involved in swinging these huge sticks is immense however the stick has to match the drum to get the correct sound out of it. The drummer stands facing the drum with one leg bent at the knee (usually the left) and the other stretched out behind him. This gives the leverage to be able to hit the drum and maintain balance. The drum can be played by one person or by two, however one player will almost always be the lead player and the other has a supportive role. Chu-daiko : I have seen at least five positions for playing this drum
Upright: The standard 'ensemble' playing position is similar to just having the drum standing upright on the floor, excepting that it is on a low flat stand 3-4" tall that angles it slightly toward the player and allows the bottom head to resonate freely. This position gives a slightly muted and more attack oriented sound to the drum. The player stands square-on behind the drum with knees bent to maintain balance as one would do in marital arts and is struck in a vertical plane. The sticks used are smaller versions of the o-daiko sticks, approx. 15" long however they taper from handle to tip from approx. 1" - 0.75" in diameter. This is the most common way of mounting and playing the Chu-daiko.
Onbayashi (1 player) this is one of the two most ergonomically demanding positions for the player. the drum is angled to around 30 degrees with one end on a support on the floor and the other end is raised about 12". The player sits on the ground with his legs either side of the raised head of the drum and plays mid-crunch style for the duration of the song. The drum is almost totally free to resonate and delivers quality and fullness of tone that we normally associate with big drums. I have tried this style and it is a wonderfully responsive way of playing the drum but you need to work up to having the abdominal strength to play for more than a few minutes. The sticks used are brutal, resembling short baseball bats. This is the style best known for its use in the Kodo piece Yatai Bayashi.
Miyake style (1-2 players). This is the other of the two most demanding playing styles. The drum is set absolutely horizontally about 9-12" off the ground and both sides can be played simultaneously. The players adopt a similar style to the O-Daiko but much lower and more side-on. The player stands left side (generally) on to the drum, left foot in line with and to the side of the drum's head. The left knee is bent so that the hips are at around knee level. The right leg is kept straight and extends away from the drum. When striking, the right stick moves horizontally insofar as is possible and the left stick swings from either under the right armpit or from over the right shoulder. This is a beautiful playing style to watch. The drum is completely free to resonate This is the style used in Miyake.
Mid position (1-2 players) The drum is mounted similarly to the above position but is raised about 2ft off the ground. the playing method is similar to the above but it is much less physically demanding
High Position (1-2 players) Played in exactly the same manner as the O-daiko and is used by many taiko groups who cannot yet afford to buy or make an O-Daiko Oki-daiko: I have seen three playing styles for this type of drum
Low position: mounted on a three legged stand, with the head about 2'6" off the floor, similar in height to the standard chu-daiko positioning. it is played similarly to the chu-daiko in ensemble pieces but has a lighter sound,
Carried: The drum is light enough to be worn on a strap around the shoulder and is usually used in this manner when the drummers are required to dance or move around the stage. The right stick can be used on its own in the usual manner or both can be used where the left stick is held like a pen, allowing the player to alternate left hand strikes between both heads, sometimes with incredible speed.
High Position: Again, I have seen this drum mounted in the shoulder-high position and played like an O-Daiko. I have also seen this drum played with a long version of 'hot-rods' a stick made up of many smaller dowels. Shime-Daiko. I am aware of two positions for this drum
Low position: Mounted on a frame formed from a single length of solid wire about 1cm thick. The playing area sits about 12" off the floor angled towards the player. The player sits cross-legged in front of the drum to play it.
Mounted: in this position the drum is placed on a cradle similar to that used by the Oki-Daiko. With this mounting the drum can be played from a standing position as it will be at the same height as both the Chu-daiko and Oki-Daiko. Learning Taiko Taiko is traditionally taught orally using 'Kuchi Showa' which is a systyem of giving each stroke or combination of strokes a word. The word also indicates which part of the skin / rim / body is struck as well as giving the rhythmic elements. The basic premise is that if you can say it, you can play it.
THE FOLLOWING SECTIONS ARE BORROWED FROM TATSUMAKI TAIKO Sounds, used in teaching taiko by "kuchi showa": (taken from Tatsumaki Taiko) The following chart shows the most commonly used phonetic alphabet used to learn taiko songs.These phonetic words are used to express both the sound and emphasis of the beats, as well as the time value of the beats. As a result, the notation is not exact compared to the western method of music notation. There are 4 columns in the chart: the first shows the taiko player's sound, the next the shimedaiko player's, then the atarigane & "canon" sounds, and finally the meaning and value of the sound.
Taiko
Shimedaiko
Atarigane, Canon
Meaning & Musical Value
Don (Kon)
Ten
Chan
A single loud beat to the center (hara) of the drum. The left hand on a taiko is sometimes called "kon." This could be considered the equivalent of a quarter note; but could also be a half note, etc..
Do (Ko, Ro)
Te (Ke, Re)
Chi (Ki)
A single firm beat to the hara, but with a value 1/2 that of "don" (the left is sometimes called "ko" or "ke"). This would be an eighth note, if "don" is a quarter note.
DoKo
TeKe
ChiKi
2 Fast beats of equal sound, and power. This would be the equivalent of 2 eighth notes.
DoRo
TeRe
ChiRi
2 Fast beats, but with a slight "rolling" feel to the beats. Played "right, left."
Tsu
Tsu
Tsu
A note played softly. The value of the note is variable.
TsuKu
TsuKu
TsuKu
2 Fast beats played softly (the left hand is "ku").
Ka
Ka
n/a
A beat played on the edge of the drum (fuchi), sometimes on the body (ko).
KaRa
KaRa*
n/a
2 Fast beats played on the fuchi, with a slight "rolling" feel to the beats. Played "right, left."
Su
Su
Su
A rest. The value of the rest is variable, but usually it is one beat of the pulse of the meter.
Zu
Zu
n/a
Another term for a soft beat, sometimes played with a slight "drag" to the beat.*not normally played on a shimedaiko
Taiko Dictionary (used with thanks to Tatsumaki Taiko)
Taiko - the generic Japanese word for drum, sometimes spelled "daiko" when combined with another word.
Nagadou Daiko, Miya Daiko - the most common taiko, these are the drums used most frequently in festivals. Usually between 18 to 36 inches in diameter, with the taiko body length equal to, or longer than the diameter. The name literally means "long drum." Nagadou Daiko are made from a single log (of zelkova, or "keyaki"), they have a loud booming sound. They can either be played resting on their end ("flat"), or on a stand in either a horizontal or diagonal position.
O-Daiko - the largest taiko, some can be 6 feet or more in diameter! These are the drums made famous by "Kodo" and "Ondekoza," Japan's premier taiko groups. Taiko groups will sometimes paint a "mitsudomoe" (3 sided "ying/yang" symbol) on the O-daiko skins. O-daiko are played on stands in a horizontal position ("kagami uchi"), often with a drummer on each side of the same drum.
Chu Daiko - a taiko that is larger than a "miya daiko" or "jozuke," but smaller than an "O-daiko." Usually about 24 to 40 inches in diameter.
Wadaiko, Miya Daiko, Nagadou Daiko, Jozuke - all are terms used for a taiko between 18 to 24 inches, that can be played flat ("beta uchi"), or on a slanted stand ("sukeroku" style). Note: some US taiko groups refer to a taiko this size as a "jozuke." That term comes from the taiko group "O-Edo Sukeroku Daiko" of Tokyo, and is not commonly used by others in Japan.
Shime Daiko and Tsukeshime Daiko - the small high pitched taiko (usually with a head 14 to 16 inches in diameter) that often plays the "jiuchi" of a song. The name comes from the word "to tighten," since the skins are traditionally held with rope (sometimes bolts) and can be tuned.
Eitetsu Okedo Daiko, Kakko - taiko that look like small Okedaiko, and made of stave construction. The Eitetsu Okedo is named after Eitetsu Hayashi, one of the founders of "Ondekoza." Traditionally these drums were used in festivals, and worn around the player's neck. The skins on these drums are held with rope, like Shimedaiko, or large Okedo.
Hira Do, Hira Daiko - a taiko cut to a quarter of the height of a standard taiko. Often hung on a frame in a horizontal position. Hira daiko have a deep tone, with a sharper attack and quicker decay than Nagadou Daiko.
Okedo Taiko, Oke Daiko - a large taiko with 2 hooped heads held with rope (like a shime, or tsukeshime). Okedo are usually about 36 inches or more in diameter, and 4 to 6 feet in length, played on a stand ("kagami uchi"), and have a deep sound. These drums were originally made from buckets or barrels called "oke."
Uchiwa Daiko - a "fan" drum. Uchiwa are shaped like a fan, with the skin stretched around a metal hoop. They have no body, just the hoop with a handle, and come in various sizes. Their sound is similar to Remo "Roto-tom" drums. Tatsumaki Taiko
Parts of a Taiko:
Ko - the body of the drum.
Hara - the center of the skin.
Fuchi - the edge of the top and bottom of the drum.
Kawa - the skin.
Mimi - the excess skin that wraps around the side of the taiko.
Byou - the tacks that hold the skin on a taiko.
Kanagu, or Kan - the ring shaped handles on larger nagadou taiko. ("Kanagu" literally means metal fixtures, or hardware).
Nawa - the rope on a shime or okedo daiko. Tatsumaki Taiko
Taiko Measurements and Dimensions:
Shaku - the measurement used for large taiko. 1 shaku = 30 cm/12 inches. A shaku is made of 10 smaller units called sun. Usually the shaku diameter of the head is used to categorize a taiko, so drums will be referred to as 1.5 shaku, or 2 shaku...
Sun - the measurement used for small taiko, and bells and cymbals. 1 sun = 3 cm, or 1 and 3/16 ths inches. A shimedaiko's skin diameter is measured in shaku, but the shell is measured in sun. Standard sizes are 5, 6 and 7 sun.Shimedaiko Sizes
In addition the weight & thickness of the skin is used to categorize a shimedaiko:Namizuke - lightest weight, thinnest skin. Not normally used for taiko performances.
Nichougake - also called a "Number 2." Slightly heavier & thicker than a namizuke.
Sanchougake - also called a "Number 3." Heavier & thicker....one of the more popular sizes.
Yonchougake - also called a "Number 4." Probably the most popular size among taiko groups.
Gochougake - also called a "Number 5." The heaviest and thickest skin. Can be tightened to a very high pitch. Tatsumaki Taiko
Types of Wood: Japanese name in bold - English equivalent (if any), and use in taiko, antiques, etc..
Keyaki - Zelkovia, used to make single piece taiko and shimedaiko bodies.
Tochi - Horse Chestnut, used to make single piece taiko bodies.
Sen - Unknown, used to make single piece taiko and shimedaiko bodies.
Nara - Scrub Oak, used by Kawada Taiko to make their "Hi-Tech Taikos" which are constructed from staves, also used for Bachi.
Tamo - Unknown, used by Kawada Taiko to make their "Hi-Tech Taikos" which are constructed from staves.
Hinoki - Cypress, used to make bachi, especially for O-daiko.
Matsu - Pine, used for bachi, especially for O-daiko.
Kashi - Evergreen Oak, used for bachi (all sizes), and for dai (stands).
Haku - Oak (general term).
Hoo - Magnolia, used for bachi, all sizes.
Buna - Beech, used for bachi, all sizes.
Take - Bamboo, used to make fue (flutes), and for special types of bachi.
Kaede - Maple, used for special bachi.
Kiri - Paulownia, used for special bachi. Also used in furniture and antiques.
Sugi - Cedar, used in furniture and antiques.
Kaba - Birch, used in making western drums.
Hannoki - Alder, used in furniture and antiques.Tatsumaki Taiko
Other Instruments:
Bachi - taiko sticks.
ane - a bell, or small gong (see Atarigane).
Dora - a gong.
Suzu - also means bell. Usually small round bells. The bells at a Shinto shrine are referred to as "suzu."
Atarigane, or Chanchiki - a saucer shaped bell, often hung from a cord like a small gong. Atarigane are played with a "shumoku," a single stick that traditionally has a piece of deer antler on the end. The atarigane often keeps the "jiuchi" of a song.
Chappa, or Tebyoushi - small hand cymbals that are used in place of an Atarigane, (or "Canon,") to keephe "jiuchi" or basic rhythm of a song.
Canon, or Tetsu-tsutsu - a set of bells on a stand consisting of high and low pitched bells with a hollow metallic piece in between of indefinite pitch. The 2 bells are usually tuned to a 3rd or 4th step, as in Latin music. The middle piece makes a metallic "ching" sound. The "canon" (or "tetsu-tsutsu" in Japanese) is used to play the basic beat.
Tsutsumi - the small hourglass shaped drum used in traditional Japanese music, and Noh theater. Tsutsumi are played with the hands, not with bachi.
Hyoushigi - wooden "clapers." Two wooden blocks tied together with rope, and struck together to produce a clave like sound. Used in old Japan by street merchants to call their customers.
Narimono - the generic term for small percussion instruments.
Fue - means "flute" in Japanese. Fue come in many sizes and pitches, but they are generally high in pitch and made of bamboo (called shinobue).
Shakuhachi - a special Japanese flute made of a long piece of bamboo. Shakuhachi have a low melancholy sound. Tatsumaki Taiko
Other Taiko terms:
Ashi dai - a stand with legs (ashi), usually ashi dai will hold a drum in a horizontal position so that the middle of the drum is slightly above eye-level.
Beta uchi - playing a taiko that sits flat on the floor with one skin horizontal.
Dai - The generic word for a stand.
Dojo - the Japanese term used for a school, or a group in training.
Hachijo daiko - a style of playing taiko where the taiko rests horizontally on a stand at about shoulder height, so the 2 heads are vertical to the player. Drummers play both sides of the taiko - one side plays the "O-uchi," while the other plays the "Ji-uchi." This style originated on Hachijo Island, and is known for its flashy arm movements, and impressive stick work.
Hayashi (or Bayashi) - a musical band, or accompaniment. Also refers to festival music, for example "Matsuri no Bayashi."
Henbyoushi - change of rhythm.
Hyoushi - musical time, a rhythm, or a musical time pattern.
Ikko - the first beat of a war drum.
Ji-uchi, or Jikata - the basic feel and meter of a taiko song.
Kagami uchi - playing a taiko that rests horizontally on a stand. The 2 heads are vertical to the player. Used for O-Daiko, and Hachijo styles. Sometimes drummers play both sides of the same taiko.
Ka kai e - playing an Okedo held by a strap over the drummer's shoulder. This style is generally associated with "Kodo" and Leonard Eto (a former member). Although "ka kai e" originally comes from festivals, Leonard Eto and "Kodo" popularized the speedy stick work and cross-over arm movements that are now associated with it.
Kamaete - the performers' starting position for a taiko song.
Kata - the performers' positioning and movement. This is a term borrowed from martial arts, and loosely means "form."
Ki ai, or Kakegoe - the shouts and verbal cues that taiko players use to keep time, increase their energy, and encourage one another while playing.
Kuchi showa - the method of teaching and learning taiko songs by the use of an "alphabet of sounds." For example, "Don" for a loud beat to the center of the drum, and "Tsu" for a soft beat.
Kumi daiko - the arrangement of many different taiko into a drum set, as in a western drum kit. This style shows the influence of jazz and dance band drumming in modern taiko.
Matsuri - means "festival" in Japanese. Taiko is often played at a matsuri, for example "O-bon Matsuri". There is even a song called "Matsuri Daiko," which has many regional variations. Each version celebrating the uniqueness of the community that performs it.
Miyake daiko - a style of taiko where a large taiko rests "kagami uchi" (horizontal) on a low stand. Sometimes 2 taiko are used, with the player in between. This style originated on Miyake Island, and is unique in the way drummers must position themselves to play the taiko on low stands.
Onbayashi - the style of playing a nagadou taiko where the drummer is lying on the floor in a reclining position. The taiko rests on a low stand in a horizontal position, the drummer's legs straddle the taiko. This style comes from the piece "Yatai bayashi" and was popularized by "Ondekoza."
Oritatami dai - translates as "folding stand." This is the general term for any folding leg taiko stand, including slant or diagonal stands. Slanted stands are sometimes called "sukeroku dai" by US taiko groups. The term "sukeroku" was coined by "O-Edo Sukeroku Daiko" of Tokyo, and is not generally used by others in Japan. For example, a taiko catalog would list a slant stand as an "oritatami dai," not as a "sukeroku dai."
Oroshi - played at the beginning of a performance or song to focus the player on the taiko, and bring a group of drummers together. Usually an oroshi starts with slow beats that gradually increase in speed and intensity until a fast roll is played.
O-uchi - the main player, or the "song" part of a taiko piece.
Renshu - means "practice." As a warm-up, some groups play a "renshu daiko" or practice exercise.
Sukeroku - a style of playing where the taiko rests in slanted (diagonal) position. Popular in the Edo (Tokyo) area, and traditionally played at "matsuri." This style has been taken to new heights by a group from Tokyo called "O-Edo Sukeroku Daiko."
Tekoto - a style of playing where the drummer alternately plays the "hara" and the "fuchi" of the taiko.
Uchite - a taiko drummer. Tatsumaki Taiko
Other Music terms:
Ainote - interlude; accompaniment; strain of music
Bugaku - court dance and music
Bukyoku - musical dance; music and dancing.
Butoukyoku - dance music.
Chouchou - major key (music notation).
Ei - a sharp (music notation).
Eihechouchou - F sharp major (music notation).
Ensou - music performance.
Fukikomu - to blow into; to breathe into; to inspire; to lay down a recording (music, video, etc.).
Fumen - written music.
Fumendai - music stand.
Gagaku - old Japanese court music.
Gakufu - score (written music).
Gigaku - ancient music.
Gosen - staff (music notation).
Gosenfu - a written music score.
Gosenshi - music paper.
Gouchou - tuning (music instruments).
Gungaku - military music.
Hakusuu - count of beats in music.
Han'on - half tone (music notation).
Han'onkai - chromatic (music scale).
Happyoukai - recital (i.e. of music, by a pupil).
Hassou - expression (when referring to music).
Heikinritsu - temperament (music).
Hen - flat (music notation).
Henrotanchou - B flat minor (music scale).
Hensoukyoku - variation (music).
Iemoto - the head of a school (of music, dance).
Ikkyoku - a tune (melody, piece of music).
Jinrai - wind instruments.
Jouen - performance (when referring to music).
Kagura - ancient Shinto music and dancing.
Kangen - music for wind and string instruments.
Kangengaku - orchestral music.
Kigaku - instrumental music.
Kogaku - ancient (early) music.
Kokyoku - old music.
Kyoku - tune; piece of music.
Kyouon - accent (music notation).
Kyuufu - rest (music notation).
Kyuushifu - rest (music); period; full stop.
Mimigakoeteiru - to have an ear for music.
Myuujikku - the word "music" spelled phonetically in Japanese.
Okesa - type of traditional vocal music.
Ondai - College of Music (abbreviation).
Ongaku - music.
Ongakudaigaku - College of Music.
Ongakushi - music history.
Onpu - music; notes; notation.
Saifu - writing a melody on music paper; recording a tune in musical notes.
Sakkyoku - composition (of music).
Sanbyoushi - triple time (music).
Seigaku - vocal music.
Shuusaku - study (when referring to music).
Suisougaku - music for wind instruments.
Tanchou - minor key (music notation).
Teion - rest (music notation, obsolete).
Teionpu - rest (music notation, obsolete).
Zen'on - whole tone (music).
Zenkyuushifu - whole rest (music notation).
Zokuchou - popular music; "vulgar" music.
Zokugaku - popular music, world music.
Tatsumaki Taiko
Clothing:
Happi, or Hanten - the colorful "short coats" that are usullay worn with an "obi" (belt). Often the happi bears the name and logo (called "mon") of the taiko group.
Fundoshi - the cloth that is wrapped around a man's legs and waist (basically like small jockey pants), and worn when playing the O-daiko or Okedo. In Japan men still wear fundoshi during summer matsuri, for example when carrying a "mikoshi" or pulling a "yatai."
Haragake - originally used as a carpenter's apron. Haragake look like aprons, they cover the chest and stomach, and have straps that criss-cross over the shoulders.
Tabi - shoes worn by taiko players. They are similar to high-top "kung fu" shoes, but the big toe is separated like the thumb of a mitten.
Momohiki - the pants often worn by taiko players. They are like long under pants, or tights, but tie around the waist.
Hachimaki - the head band worn by many taiko players (and sushi-ya).
Obi - the belt that holds a kimono or happi coat. Tatsumaki Taiko

-repost from gurenblog.blogspot.com

2010-05-23T07:57:00.000-07:00

haha! best shot of the day during the flower arrangement event at the event yesterday!

Totally EPIC DAY! hahahaahaha

some noob got KOed on the 2nd month of school.

and made me do lots of shit. LOL!

And yeah.. my camera is finally rioting against me...

Battery just die off so fast...

the screen like having violet light sometimes...

Time to upgrade..

DSLR :)

and my choice... Samsung GX-10? :D

Wasted chance.

2010-05-18T12:48:00.000-07:00

finally, a long day is over for me...
today, everything seemed fucked up.

morning rained, and i have to carry 2 guitars up the god damn NP slope.

during filming, one of the actors went missing.

tons of issues with the shoot...

maya file went missing...

it's just..

sian.

at least i see someone that brighten up evening :)

now working on Logo designing.

initially i thought it might really be drawings...

but ended up as typography!

Heng i score good grades for that! :D

Plus my AD in CG helps :D

new work from Photoshop, everything starts from scratch!

Unicorn is painted with only a brush tool :d

3h effort! :D

2010-05-11T11:25:00.000-07:00

Hell yeah... 3 full hours of inspiration search and testing finally gave me a result that i want.

Thanks to many modellers out there! Especially GP freak :D

Disclaimer -(Reference material from GP Freak)-

1 full year of no contact with my gundams really drain the skill i had out of me.

Back then, i was a fanatic modeller who can spend hours sitting down doing one portion of the gundam.

I totally missed those time...

Well you can say that was the time my patient was at the highest and my colour judgement was also the best...

Ever since school started, things gotten busy and i hardly found anytime for this hobby of mine.

Everything suddenly become black and white.

I worked on 2D art, 3D modelling and computer graphics...

Most of the time were in grayscale, we hardly touched on any colours.

Probably that was the time my judgement became worsen...

Plus, i never venture into creating new colour scheme for other purposes other than my gundam.

Yes, i did observe a lot of other people's work...

But when it comes to my own work... i just sit there and stun.

So from now, i will work a kit every now and then...

Be it competition or leisure...

All shall be marked as the same standard.

A standard recognise by professionals.

And so... 2 Major goals to fulfill :)

LANCELOT IS COMING SOON D:! I DONT HAVE CASH!@#!#$!@#$!@#

2010-05-11T07:58:00.000-07:00

New plans for my music life:

1) Session every month with Jason (Y)

2) Save up for Edwards Fr-GT

3) Get into taiko troupe :D

4) Learn violin by myself (OMFG)

5) Perfect my upbeats and downbeats

6) Chiong scaling!

from 1~4, everything is about money. sian :(

Just why on earth Music is so expensive nowadays?

2010-05-10T07:01:00.000-07:00

I think...

I lost my sense of colour.

How? ._ .

let's just say, i wanna see you...

2010-05-07T11:25:00.000-07:00

昨日は私が初回を怒った…

理由が知りませんね…

姉ちゃんの態度はとても容認できない。

いつは改めるか？

誰か、何をするに教える。

＿（。、。）＿

2010-05-06T08:48:00.000-07:00

The more you are this manner, the more loser you sculpt yourself in front of me.

Just fuck off and stop making everybody miserable.

你就算了吧。。。再給你機會，也是白費的。

你這個廢物。

2010-05-05T09:10:00.000-07:00

Woke up early today for painting...

but my parents went to a wake and there isnt any breakfast.

So, i searched through my fridge, and viola!

Found nice ingredients for a nice meal :D

New experiments for today...

2 NEW dishes that i created on my own

Next time shall cook for everyone else! :D

2010-05-02T05:08:00.000-07:00

seriously...

i suck at story telling. gonna see a C+ in my report card this sem!

-currently hitting 8h of idea generation (to no avail)-

2010-05-01T05:39:00.000-07:00

I just found out, i can be a hair stylist for others and not myself D:!

2010-04-30T09:02:00.000-07:00

I had been fine this morning.

Then i started to sneeze 20 times in a row.

Now, im bedridden and hardly have the energy to think what to do next.

I just hate being sick, especially when i get the combo 3 ( flu, sore throat and fever).

Time to rebuild the fit and strong body of mine. [can it even come true?]

Ciao world-

2010-04-30T08:43:00.000-07:00

Kicked off the day with a super unexplainable dream.

It happened in a HDB scene. It was midnight and i was with many people at a grass field gazing at the sky. In front of us was a HDB block. Apparently, it was an old one. Halfway through our gaze, we saw lights coming from the highest unit of the block. There were party lights and all, flashing in different colours. Suddenly, the room turned red, and we heard yelling. Not long after, a man just screamed and jump down of the building. 2 men came out after him, looked down and jumped. Then a great number of them came out and jumped down as well... We were stunned, jaws wide opened... 13 china men was lying motionless under the block.

The following day, news were reporting about this bizarre case that occurred. I told my parents about it and seemingly, they don't believe. A witness told the reporter about the whole thing he saw. The old man, witness, reported that the 13 men was smiling and chatting while they were lying on a pool of blood. All of them snapped off their lives at the same time though... Next, the news uncovered the scene of the HDB unit. Many empty hard liquor bottles were spotted, however, through autopsy report, none of the men had alcohol in their body when they died.

So the question is, where did those alcohol went? How did those men get hold of such great numbers of alcohol? No one knew... Halfway through the news, police investigators suddenly screamed and jumped off the building as well. This time... everyone went silent, nobody could understand what had just happened.

Not long after, some holy priest came into the scene doing their job by excoriate the spirits in the room. A dragon dance troupe came as well to give blessings. As they took a step into the boundary of the building, everything went chaos again. A bull dozer appeared out of no where and ram all the priest and dragon dance... And the most mysterious thing is that... none of them actually tried to avoid the bang.

Now... 33 deaths.

And... ... ... i woke up.

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Someone once told me that our dream reflects our inner fear. Having to dream of something like this.. It is even possible for it to be a message? Or was it just a mere dream that i must know?

No answer... This is plain craziness.

2010-04-27T11:20:00.000-07:00

yeah... the clock is ticking... 13 days to submission, 10 days to photoshoot!

CAN I MAKE IT!?!?!?

君の励ますと微笑みは私の精力。

2010-04-22T08:52:00.001-07:00

I got to say... the new intake give and doesn't give me hope at all.

A good sign or an omen? Who knows? ._ .

& too many things on the list yo~

2010-04-21T09:49:00.000-07:00

Ahh... finally after 2 whole months of planning and production stage...

I'm finally moving onto painting soon :)

Just a few more touchup on the body itself and inspection by Master...

Still got 20 days!

I CAN DO IT!!!

2010-04-20T10:55:00.000-07:00

woah man, just completed my proposal for sdar @_@

1k words! haha :DD

Just hope everything will turn out fine... and my proposal being accepted.

頑張ります！ :D

My eyes and mind brought me to you today

& i cant see u tmr-

All i saw was you standing out in the vast number of people :)

2010-04-19T04:42:00.001-07:00

A miracle happened just now, I was hoping to see you on bus, and so i did. :)

2010-04-15T07:32:00.000-07:00

A question got me pondering over an issue.

The question was, "Are you really happy with this work?"

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That was my answer before leaving work place.

Along the route home, i gave myself a possible answer.

I joined this company because of the attractive salary given to the workers.

Work life is simple and easy.

I do not have to work some bloody long hours to earn some money to make myself happy.

Tons of girls flowing in and out of the store.

Cute animal to see and have fun with.

Save lots of time on traveling, minimum time wastage.

But...

It wasn't what i really wanted...

I looked deep into myself, in fact, i was afraid of serving certain customer.

I was scared of the question they throw at me and expect a perfect answer from me.

I was always not on schedule, nothing was fixed all the time.

CCA and school screw my timing up, it wasn't stable at all...

More upcoming event that i need to attend and very time consuming.

My passion isn't there, couldn't generate a single bit of it out.

I'm not a critical thinker and worker, resulting in poor efficient rate...

Most importantly... I haven't felt a single hinge of happiness from my work.

I guessed i would have been happier in a kitchen, or spending my time in some community.

I once said, "money isn't the most important element in a working life for me, what matters most is being happy with my own work and i excel in it."

I failed to follow what i planted for myself, I'm not following my own principle.

How amazing.... a question led me to this conclusion.

I guess, i will quit work after this month.

School's starting, life's gonna take to another crazy level.

Plus, i sense a new spark in myself. :)

2010-04-13T10:23:00.000-07:00

24h a day is a total piece of crap

I guess i need more time from now...

3 weeks is all i left, no skimpy work is allowed!

"All these while, I was hoping to see you on bus to school everyday..."

Is this what I want now?

2010-04-09T09:53:00.001-07:00

there was a reason for everything.

part

the path i indirectly set for you might be my biggest mistake yet

not asking for forgiveness, but seeking for understanding

you might understand why it happened before

still

I once told you something, but i thought it didn't went into you

lived

questions, sadness, sorrows and depression had haunted you

but it seems you are living on and advancing forward

the

I have no clue of how you had pulled through

past,

but the only thing i hope for was you to seek a reason for it

that's

a proper, persuasive and correct answer

why

but not something out of frustration

probably what i'd done left a scar in you

did

it was all for your good

something

you deserve a better life

redeem yourself from the past, know the future

this

learn your mistakes and avoid history repeat

I hoped you will see this before you contact me once again...

you..

I wish you the best, ハナ

it was unfair, i know, but i wished i had a choice

~time through the pain and set me free

2010-04-05T08:43:00.001-07:00

It's been a while since i had last work on a Gundam kit so whole heartedly...

It got me thinking quite a little whenever i pick up my tools and use it.

One whole year, i barely touched any of my kits...

Thanks to my wonder school life ..!.. FML

Forcing this precious and unique skill of mine to degenerate..

After all, Gundam kit really makes me happy, though there are tons of cuts and blood spill.

And this relates back to my aim for this holiday, is it achieved?

Prolly no.

2010-03-25T01:27:00.000-07:00

A key for you.

... i got to think about this.

2010-03-14T12:23:00.000-07:00

My weekends was dope shit.

Saturday was super epic.

It was sis's 21th birthday and i didn't really help out at all :D

Anyway, お誕生日おめでとう！

After which, left home at 7pm for Esplanade.

The journey was "awesome".

My bus didn't appear after 30min. (Y)

Bus came and met red light every one junction. (Y)(Y)

Every bus stop got people alighting and boarding the bus. (Y)(Y)(Y)

The bus uncle is one old fag that drive the bus at an amazingly slow speed (Y)(Y)(Y)(Y)

In the middle of the T junction at Scotts road, a woman bang her car hard and stopped in the middle of the road causing a major jam, and my bus was trapped for 3 red lights! **** (Y)(Y)(Y)(Y)(Y)

I got fed up, alight from the bus and rush for a taxi. :(

Best part is... my Breakout! tickets dropped while boarding the taxi! :((((((

At that moment... i thought my $120 is gonna fly for good.

But luckily got ken at Esplanade waiting, so he went to get new tickets for me. :D

and yeah, must thank the Taxi uncle for speeding for me :D (Y)

By right i should reach Esplanade within 45 min.

End up i was late and have to wait outside the theatre before the blackout time than i can reenter. :(

Saturday was, DAMN SCREWED UP.

Then Sunday was an eye opening experience for me.

Went for a locking workshop conducted by Aga, the most respected locker in Taiwan.

Paid $15, totally worth it :)

The choreography was just way too crazy for me to handle, since i have some things haven't learn yet.

But today, i really danced smiling.

Funk style rules! Keep Funking yo! :D

And yeah,

CONGRATULATIONS TO PHRASE 6 FOR SEMI!

JOWEE, U KEEP YOUR WORDS DUDE :D

2010-03-07T21:59:00.000-08:00

ガンダムの競技会、行け〜！ \(^ w ^)/

2010-03-05T05:23:00.000-08:00

work kick off real hard today...

tons of customer coming in and out of the shop, not to forget, stocks.

it comes in every 15 min and also, in a huge bundle.

heard that mondays are the killers, so gonna wait till i get to work on that day then i will taste what is call "incoming stocks"

thinking of adopting a hamster for observation at home...

Roboski or Snow Winter White? hmm (._ . )

& yeah, life's gotten a bit upslope now xD

君は本当にすごいね？

2010-02-28T07:35:00.000-08:00

First time editing my own picture. Turn out to be, "Is this me?" :D

Everything you see here is photoshopped!

Clothes are painted with dodge and burn tool, so is the hair :3

Skin tone edited through colour overlay :DD

Accessories drawn from scratch xD!

Time to achieve this by Year 3! Gonna be pure japanese for once ._ .

And yeah. I'm such a sinner.

2010-02-25T22:47:00.000-08:00

Just what is my true purpose in life?

What is my candle like?

Where is my flame.

This holiday, only 2 can be answered.

2010-02-18T09:45:00.000-08:00

It had been weird these few days...

The feeling of rejection and confusion mixed like alloy inside my mind.

Somehow, this lead me to share my theory with everybody or anyone reading my blog.

My theory is rather base on society relationship.

Well, everybody knows that before introducing to each other, we are still "strangers".

But nowadays, getting to know someone is getting easier.

We have social network like Facebook, Friendster, blog, twitter etc etc

We also have friends who have lots of friends and always bring us to mix around with them.

And so, from "stranger", we got promoted into "acquaintance".

Well, "acquaintance" isn't really friends in my theory.

They are those "hi and bye" kind of people.

You don't really get to know them, and neither they will wanna know you.

UNLESS.

Either side feel a feeling of attraction towards the other party.

Well, this can be mutual as well.

The attraction I mention here isn't the kind of boy-girl relationship(BGR), but rather the urge of being able to know this person better.

This will then allow us to level up one more time into "friends".

So as "friends", we show care and love for each other.

This care and love is something that brings people into more comfort.

Reason being that it allow us to feel that someone is there for us and making it such that we feel life. (or the feeling of being needed [depending on situation])

As we human get closer with each other as "friends", some of us, may, develop other kind of feelings.

Well, there are many paths through this feeling I'm trying to say here.

People may feel that they want to love this person as his or her partner. (which means, BGR)

Some may have the feeling of hate. (Reason being due to the fact that they know too much about another person's ugly side)

Others choose to break this special bond between each other as they find it redundant to continue this friendship thing, and rather continue as "acquaintance".

And minority will take a bazaar path; the path of being obsessed with another person for certain reasons.

There are still other paths, but i would like to emphasize on "obsession".

What exactly is obsession?

To some people, i believe that obsession is the way they think is "love".

To me, i strongly believe that love was never something for us to obsess with.

If you happen to smite another person for some reason, but you overdo it.

It somewhat become more like the person you smitten with is an object.

And since when objects are loved?

We can only enjoy or like, but not love.

Why?

Love is something emotional yet mysterious.

It can bring someone down or make someone happy.

But just how much can an object manipulate your emotions?

Back to main topic...

We human can be obsessed with anything, like the TV, food and all.

All these obsession are just a bias enjoyment.

Nobody really benefit from it only the obsessor.

But have we ever consider that obsession with somebody is a right thing?

Would it send a chill down their spine when they figure that things ain't right?

For me, i would find a way to stop this obsession.

Reason being that, the other party might feel hurt when their obsession for the other party is being rejected.

This might bring them to another mental state of struggle which is bad for both mental and physical health.

So i strongly believe that we human shouldn't be obsess with another person.

This is a mental suicidal path.

Just like any other news you see on the TV; teen jumps off building for lover whom met accident.

THAT IS AN AFTER EFFECT OF OBSESSION.

Hence, to end up this post, I hope that whoever reading this will be more alert of the people around them.

Taking notices of any abnormalities, especially those who are obsessed with others and help them out of their ring of obsession.

Disclaimer: I claim that this blog-post are not targeted at any individual or personnel. I apologise for all the grammatical errors made and will made improvements as time pass. -Anson

2010-02-16T05:05:00.000-08:00

WOAH, yet another crazy night with A1 family!

First time celebrating CNY outside of my own family.

First night i got drunk like a faggot.

First time making sushi for close friends.

Finally, i got to taste how is it like to be drunk.

Many shots of RAW Barcardi isn't a joke man.

Maybe... i just cannot drink when i'm tired.

Or I get alcohol poisoning the next moment.

I can remember what i did when i was drunk.

OMFG. LOL

But I somehow didn't restrict myself to stop doing those things.

The feeling of air headed like what Uncle Ken says is really "shiok".

Tons of shit happen, locking while i was drunk...

However, i woke up with rashes.

WTF. :(

That is really wtf man...

We should have drank with some food to adsorb some of the alcohol.

We end up drinking with an empty stomach.

And so the alcohol poisoning is just madness.

Well... CY also faced the same side effect. Haha

Oh well, it was just to awesome to prevent xD

My sushi was a hit, all 70+ upsized sushi was finished.

This year the sushi was way too generous.

All the filling had a + 30% increment.

But somehow I hoped I had amazed and appealed somebody. (._ .)

CY then asked for partnership, lol, that will be a boomz man!

Western + Japanese food, the combo is just irresistible. :D

Had lots of man talk with some brothers.

Know more about the concept of "love".

Though i might be like sprouting nonsense, but i know, i'm no longer drunk at that time.

Lots of stuff said last night will be kept in the playground.

Nothing revealed ;)

I did a test on you. It worked, you are just plain crazy about me.

Haha, now i feel like joining NRA even more.

That's for sure ;)

2010-02-10T07:50:00.001-08:00

For the first time, I PERMED MY HAIR.

NO MORE FLAT TOPS >:)

I found my solution; that was, my mistake in perception.

& pls, dont get involve with me now

2010-02-05T07:21:00.000-08:00

This feels like over concern than the feeling of affection towards you

I'm not sure

2010-01-31T06:16:00.000-08:00

It is great to have friends. Someone to talk to, bullshit with.

But things become sucky when you seem so close to them,

yet the feeling is so distant.

Sometime i just wonder,

was it me who are having problems communicating, or them.

No answer, still searching. :(

2010-01-28T07:51:00.000-08:00

-on a second thought, she does deserve this punishment-

.talking to you just lift my spirit up

2010-01-26T20:28:00.000-08:00

Just these 2 days, i experience how powerful a human brain can be.

On monday, after the intensive locking session with Justin, my whole arm ache like hell.

Day one was still alright, i still can lift up my arms.

It's day 2 that's a torture.

Early in the morning, i couldn't even lift my hand up.

Even if i tried, it will be moving at a very very slow speed.

So i spend the whole day walking like a stick and all my actions are slow.

However, since day 1, i began sending a strong message from my brain to my body.

I told my body to recover fast by Wednesday, cause i cannot afford to carry this pain with me to the performance this Saturday.

Thursday will be the last day i can ever experiencing the pain.

Surprisingly, i woke up now to find out my arm don't ache anymore.

Unlike last time, i had never thought of using our brain to communicate with the body for a speedy recovery.

Today, i experienced it and felt that we should really put our brains to good use.

Since it can make wonders, why not we use it to create our own fate?

Though it sound like playing god, but if we don't try, who knows?

And also, we don't try now, then when? :)

2010-01-21T07:13:00.000-08:00

4 weeks.

I think that is all I'd left in this 2nd semester.

Just some time ago, all the final projects come flooding in.

Animation, 3D art, Psychology, CompIssues...

I hope this time round, no more procrastinating.

It's either do it now or never.

Animation isn't a problem, but getting an AD will be a big problem...

I have ambitious ideas all the time and couldn't make life easy for me.

My thinking starts to get complex... like years ago.

If only i can return back to the simple mindset i used to own when i'm younger.

Life would have been easier for me.

Time to really be pragmatic and simple minded.

My course is a goner. 22 C.O.P ._ .

Does that make any difference from a student in Engineering?

But one thing for sure... our future are bleak.

2010-01-20T15:25:00.000-08:00

"It all begins with a flare, gradually burns into a majestic flame"

2010-01-18T07:36:00.001-08:00

Today, sis went for her lump removal operation..

It was a success and now she's resting at home.

Seeing her suffering every minute made me worry for her...

She don't deserve this ya?

Just hope she pull through this period of recovering, and hope that lump's test result is positively safe!

I Love ya sis!

This just reminds me of some years back...

Blood is no longer disgusting to me anymore.

I wanna know you better -Immunity-

2010-01-14T05:45:00.000-08:00

Today was the biggest fear yet for this semester.

Am i really prepared for what that is gonna come crashing into my face?

Hope so!

HAHAHA FOOLED YOU! NO HIDDEN MESSAGES TODAY!

元気元気！

あなたは元気だ！

By-standers are useless in a group.

2010-01-09T08:24:00.000-08:00

DAMN I LOVE MY SENIORS!!!

If only my class have open minded people like them :(

Can't wait for the psychotic change in everybody in year 2

It's time to get kinky ;)

Open house had finally ENDED :)

Great job guys and thanks to Mr. Ng for the meal and guidance!

2010-01-08T05:17:00.000-08:00

I wonder why, it must be because of my study environment now.

Responsibility and Punctuality became a major issue for me.

As the time go past, i felt that one should not abuse these 2 aspects.

Today, i saw an intolerable irresponsible act.

A leader of a group never appear till 10min before the performance.

And that we were supposed to meet 3h beforehand.

It wasn't the first nor second time.

I was vexed.

When i saw him, i controlled myself; not to explode in front of him.

If you are given a responsibility to lead, you do your job well.

People nowadays are getting irresponsible and are always late for meetings.

I admit, i do get late at times, but i still make an effort for the time lost.

Maybe i had always been punctual and got sick of waiting all the time.

Come to think of it, all the time spend on waiting could have been better used...

It worth more than 1 month of time! :( FUCK!

I'm starting to see life in a more practical and realistic manner.

I'm changing again.

2010-01-02T06:49:00.000-08:00

あけましておめでとう！

An (un)/plesant new year start.
Pooled and ate tau hua with my friends.
Survived 2009 with a hole in my pocket, my mind and my heart.

Ambiguous i may be, i aimed to sit at the highest peak.
My resolutions for 2010...

to become an ultimate anti-procrastination student.
to be a better person in characteristic.
to expand my social network even wider.
to upgrade myself constantly and not be stagnant in life.
to be able to serve food to the ones i love.
to be able to get rid the hating side of me.
to learn how to praise others.

6 aims... just how many will be completed by 2011?

Unclear. My future is just misty.

If only I can stop searching...

2009-12-29T09:47:00.000-08:00

Just a few nights ago, me and some leftover guys talked about dreams.
Wet dream, sex dream, sweet dream, nightmare, unforgettable dream, all kind of dream.

Dream, what exactly is it?
Someone once told me that our dream reflects our inner fear.
That is only part of what dream really means.

During the period i'm attached, i often dreamt of someone killing me because of her.
Yea, a weird dream indeed.
Every night having the same repeated dream really freaks me out.
Nothing happened eventually, but that reflects what i'm fearing that time.
There are also dreams feeling so surreal.

For guys, sometimes we have kinky dreams (i admit, i do) and everytime it felt like it's happening, but it's not.
What is it telling me? :(
Sometimes, i got myself into a dangerous situation.
Having to be haunted and to kill.
Upon waking up, i was covered in sweats.
Just what is all these images trying to tell us?

Dejavu.
Some special phenomenon that happens on one.
Or rather a series of recollection event that you dreamt of previously.
It happens 90% of the time for me.
I stun almost all the time i experience Dejavu.

The day when i can wake up and remember everything seen in my dream, is the day I...?

The day you see a door with the image on top in a white room in your dreams is the day you are going to die.

2009-12-29T06:58:00.000-08:00

27th Dec 2009

NRA Freshie BBQ

Alright, i got to say, i have no link with NRA this CCA.
But the people inside rocks, ya?

Everybody in the usual gang was told to meet at Bedok at 3pm.
However nobody happen to be there on time. (As usual?)
And so i had chicken rice while waiting for the rest to appear.
Met up with Ken and talked about L4D (damn, im not a gamer! but this caught my interest :( )
Waited a while and more people came. [that was like 1h after actual meeting time]
Best part is, no plans were made before and everything was impromptu. (Y)

It was 6pm when we finally bought the first round of food.
And all of us rushed down to ECP.
Reached area C to meet up with those who reached there and we found out we were 1Km++ away from the pit (Y)(Y)
After reaching, we hurried to unpack everything and layout the food.

The chicken was frozen solid.
It couldn't be defrost and so we used the fire to unfreeze it, but FAILED. (Y)(Y)(Y)
Not long later, familiar faces which we saw an hour ago came back; with more food. (Y)(Y)(Y)(Y)

... and so... all the madness began...

At around 8pm, Justin came and unfold his master-plan.
We celebrated Donna's birthday.
and blah blah blah

Everybody left.
Left 9 guys.
We boozed (ha, so little), High(ed) and L4D in some China LAN. LOOOOOOOOOL
Morning came, all went home, except for me ken and KC.
Ken and I accompanied KC before he goes Sentosa for his round 2 of fun.

blah blah blah, took the bus and lrt.
reach home, sleep 6h.
Wake up and continue sleeping. (Y)(Y)(Y)(Y)(Y) ;)

2009-12-22T08:59:00.000-08:00

you know, we miss digimon :(

2009-12-22T05:58:00.000-08:00

Today had been a tiring day.

Spend many hours filming my NVP.

Special thanks to my whole cast and crew today.

Give yourself a big pat on the back :)

Up next is editing~ D:!!!

Oh well, that's the field where creativity is used till the max!

みなんさん、頑張ります〜！

2009-12-19T09:01:00.000-08:00

Sian, what should i do from now on?

Holiday is just shit.

and right eye is swelling up like cream puff...